The complexity of a human mind is like an iceberg.....

A once-a-close-gf of mine told me that she wasn't really feeling it with her bf that she was living with.... but very soon after she married the guy..... ....then when I made a remark abt her staying wi him wasn't for luv, she dropped me like a hot iron and I wasn't even invited to the wedding..... ...hmmm... it really made me wonder, if what I said wasn't true, why would she do that?!?

If I were her, I'd have explained if I mis-understood, esp if it was a gd friend that I valued.... But, I'd have done the same and avoid seeing her, if wot she said had even a bit of truth and it made me feel bad or ashamed....

Well... I guess, people marry for right or wrong reasons...... and I sincerely hope, it's for the rite reason for her......

As for me..... I'm feeling sad to have lost a friend.... I've tried to contact her but was ignored..... Sigh..... .... may be to her, the friendship wi me wasn't real as well..... .... and may be.... to begin with, I never had a friend to lost.....

The complexity of human mind and is intriguing yet very difficult to comprehend at times....... It's just like an iceberg..... U often get to see the tip of it and feel that that's all there is to it.... simple and clear!! .....but u realise later on that what lies underneath is way beyond your imagination nor understanding......

May be next time, I shouldn't just ski on the tip of the iceberg but try to dive underwater...... Gd thing I've learnt to dive back in Van..... finally I'll get to use it...... ;)

Leaning in progress @ 30-sth......

Wonder if anyone can really whole-hearted be remorsed abt things they've done to hurt someone physically and emotionally.... .... cus they will never understand what the victim has really gone thru.....

@ 30-sth, I'm still learning abt life and people...... Forgiving & forgetting isn't easy.... wondering when this learning will ever end..... it's challenging yet exhausting.....

My mum says...it's life long process and today I'm hoping that's not true....

People say things happen for a reason.... and I'm used to always looking at it half cup full.... and I'm hoping this time, it's for a d*mn gd reason.....

Random Wed Buzz --- is all we need sometimes.... :)

Hmmm.... buzzed again......................... :) hehe............

It's Wed nite and I'm buzzed....... not wasted but just rite.....

Started the day with boss not coming into work..... then followed by closing my very own first business deal -- selling my costume jewelry piece!!! :)))))) So yeah.... am officially no long a boring bank-er?!? (not that I ever really was....) but rather a more sophisticated and fun-luving costume jewelry designer!!! haha.......

Then... ended the day wi nice tapas dinner at Tapeo wi my gd friends and having fun chat over few drinks -- just enuf to get me buzzed but not wasted!!!

And am ready to snuggle into my bed now.... ahhhhhh............... nice.............................. :)

Am luving my life..... :)

Trying to be a Handyman in 3" High Heels...... ;)

It's un-believable how sometimes I end up wasting whole afternoon trying to do one lil thing......

All I wanted was to be my own handyman today.... it seemed easy enough.... Okay okay... so there were few things that I wanted to get done -- could have been a bit too ambitious for a first-timer.....

Mission No. 1. Un-clog the shower stand and get the mould off the bathroom tiles -- This was easy.... I managed to get a plunger and some chemical spray thingie.....

Mission No. 2. Then I also wanted to hang this 2 wooden art piece on the wall of my studio flat. To get this done -- I know I have to get 2 nails, one hammer, oh and since I wanted to paint this wooden art piece in gold color... so get a golden spray..... So, yeah I got my nails, my hammer (which proved to be too small / light.... Arrrrgghhh........ and I couldn't find golden spray..... geez.....

Mission Impossible No. 3. Change the long thin cylindrical bright lightbulb in my bathroom....... Seriously.... It shouldn't be sooo difficult..... I can't believe I came home empty handed.... All I wanted to get was a long thin cylindrical bright fluorescent light bulb..... and the shopkeeper gave me a hard time.... he kept asking exactly how long, how thin and what Watt I wanted.... >.<~ Lol.......

OMG......... Can't believe I only managed to get only one thing done..... Geez... there u go.... Guess am a spoilt city gal in 3 inch high heels..... and I admit it..... at least u've gotta give me credit for trying!! ;)

Oh well... trying to be a handyman in 3" high heels' not easy but am definitely having a lot of FUN!!! ;)

Taking my Godiva chocolate break...............

Tonite is one of the nites where I come home after a great nite out (and yea a bit tipsy....) and feel like writing wots in my mind........ :p

I generally dun like dramas but yesterday was a total drama..... lol..... it's all gd now....... gd that we gals are logical enuf to handle it cooly.....

Welll.... I dun like complications.... life is crazy as it is already...... I like drama-free life..... a straight forward black and white answers but it feels like me and my gfs are getting a lot of "grays" these days..... geez....

For all I know.... I'm a simple person.... and I only ask for a simple straight forward direct friendship, relationship, work-ship (I made up the word... lol...).......

It's funny how life gets out of control sometimes and most of the time due to someone else...... which is perfectly fine.. I guess...... I luv the unknown factors of life and the lil surprises I get on and off........

I must admit, I never liked having that unknown factors in my life..... and I'm totally guilty of trying to plan every single step of my life for past-dunno-how-many-friggin-yrs... but the past 2 yrs been a crazy roller coaster for me and I've learn to accept that may be.... just may be... life isn't meant to be taken sooo seriously.... and may be... and just may be.... I'm not suppose to plan every single steps of my life.....

Now..... finally I've learnt and am trying to practice not to plan sooo much but to take life one step at a time..... as it comes my way....... may be.... I'll trip and fall but I know I'm gonna learn to run very soon!! :)

And yes.... I'm enjoying every bit of craziness that's falling on my lap...... I do luv my life!!!! and yea..... it's such a cliche but I do feel life is definitely like a box of chocolate... u dunno wot u r gonna get next but I'm sooo gonna savour that every piece of chocolate.....

Awwww..... am sooooo craving for Godiva chocolate rite now......

My birthday wish?!? Seriously.... I dun expect much......

Can't believe it's already one yr..... since I last celebrated my birthday --- in Beijing....

Since then... too many things happened.... I finished my study & adventure in Beijing (which was totally unexpected...), then came back to HK/Macau to pack my entire life into a 12 boxes and moved half the globe away to Vancouver (which I swore I'd never do...)..... Then... I tried sooo hard to adjust to a new life at a new place.... made few nice friends and dated 2 very interesting guys and left them there..... then I came back to HK to try my life out once again....(which I thought I wouldn't....)... then just to make it more interesting than it already is -- I've fractured my rite ankle bone.... aaarrrgggghhhh....... >.<"

.... and am here wondering on my birthday-eve.... wot's in store for me in the coming yr......
Not sure if I've really grown a lot past yr..... but I've definitely learnt sth -- not to plan too much and take life as it comes my way.....

Life's got strange twists.... or at least that's how it's seems to be....... leaning to unwind that twists isn't always easy.... it sometimes is a bit exhausting.... (sigh~~) ...and I do feel like I need a shoulder but am learning to stand alone..... :) well... guess that's wot u do when u r 1 yr older..... Gd thing is..... I think that's gonna be a lot easier after the cast is off...... lol..... ;p

Well... I'm not necessarily 1 yr wiser but I've definitely learnt to appreciate my life and everything else in it...... I wonder wot I'd be doing next yr ard this time....... Hmm.... soooo waiting for another spectacular yr ahead.......

But before all that..... My birthday wish is to scratch the h*ll of of my leg after the cast is off.... lol..... talk abt not having much expectations...... oh man......

Anyways.... Happy Happy Birthday to ME~~~~~ :)

A lil buzzed.... a lil happy..... a lil down.... and a lil lost........

Just got home from a great home cooked Indian food house party..... and I think I had just a lil too much white wine...... hehe.... :)

Rite now... I'm feeling a lil buzzed.... a lil happy..... a lil down.... and a lil lost........ and as always, when I'm a lil buzzed I like pouring random stuff that's in my head onto a blank blog space....

It so funny how I'm having difficult time relaxing...... I got used to working so hard for a decade that I feel more at home working my *ss off every single minute craving and dreaming time off from everything (yeah I know, I'm sick man....) ..... but when I have just that, trying to give myself a long break is becoming more of a chore that I'm not relaxing at all..... I know I'm not making much sense.... and cuz of this..... I'm feeling a lil down and lost..... Ai.....

It's soooo funny.... I feel like I'm going thru that late teen/early 20s time where u r trying to figure things out but dun exactly know how to........ lol.... omg..... I feel sooo silly now....

Oh well.... am sure things will be better when I wake up tom..... :)

Nite nite...... ....dun let the bedbugs bite.....