From my one of the best gf.... on her looking back at 08... :)

> Date: Tue, 30 Dec 2008 23:12:58 -0800

> 2008 was a year of change for me. And one of my biggest achievement is to have gotten to know you (and Carol, to know you better). So much happened that all our stories put together is more than enough materials for a very good book, maybe more interesting than the movie version of SATC.
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> Being turned down by cocky bankers at Fong's, having duck tongue (and angela's yummy pasta) at my place, chatting while one of us goes on the step machine, drunken karaoke nights with the next day sick in bed, nice dinners where we all dress up, learning how to do eye make up from angela, having dumplings (and of course strange cocktails) in BJ, scream when one of our phone rings, laughing about HUGE, tailing GTR, listening to charles impersonate leslie cheung, I could go on and on...
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> Guys come and go, but you gals stand out in my favorite memories of 2008. Thank you for being a good friend.
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> And wish you all the best in 2009.

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And I'm glad she is one of my best galie friends..... Awww..... :)

I wonder where and what I'll be doing by this time next yr....... but no matter what.... I know my gal friends will be a big part of my next upcoming adventures in 09...... :)

Good Bye 08~

Looking back on 2008.... it has been a yr that I'll remember for the rest of my life..... 2008 has been a yr full of surprises and challenges...... yup yup..... (nodz nodz).....

It's been a yr where I was nottie & nice, worked my ass off, learned a lot, partied like there's no tomorrow, travelled to my hearts content, experienced disappointments, felt love & warmth, moved on from my old life, cried my heart out, laughted wi tears, once again realised value of life & priorities in life, left close friends but made whole lot of new ones everywhere, met my fair share of great guys & jerks (lol~).....

I must say, this yr was a combination of sweet, bitter & sour tastes but I've thoroughly enjoyed every single bit & second of it..... :) (just wanna thank everyone who voluntarily and involuntarity took part in it... lol~)...... BUT I think, am ready and happy to let 08 go.... and am waiting impatiently for 09 to explore the unchartered territories that lies in front of me..... :)

Think I've grown a lot this yr...... may be not necessarily wiser but definitely made lots of memories to treasure for the rest of my life..... Hmmm...... I wonder where and what I'll be doing by this time next yr.......

Very Merry Nice & Nottie X-Mas 2008..... ;)

Think Santa was a bit too busy this yr to visit Beijing..... May be he's also been feeling the pressure from all the financial crisis we've been facing..... lol....

.... may be I should have been really nottie afterall..... lol~ ;)

Oh well.... Very Merry Nice & Nottie X-Mas '08 to y'all.....

Am craving for.......

One thing everyone must try is eating ice-cream in cold winter day...... It's the best combination ever!!!

And rite now...... I'm craving soooo much for Haagen-Dazs...... ummm.......... yup... that's so gonna be my dessert tonite...... :)

Dun burst my "Bubbles"....

People are emotional creatures.... and they often grow attach to strangest things in life... and I'm NO Exception.....

One of the funny things that I grew attached to is 'Soap Bubbles flying in the air"..... Think it's gotta do wi childhood memories of chasing after soap bubbles flying in the air and how they reflect rainbow colors when reflected in the light......

The other nite, while I was clubbing, they made lots of flying soap bubbles.... and I just simply loved it!!! :) but a friend of mine thought I was stupid, and another thought I was childish... lol~

U know.... there are many diff forms of being happy.... and simplest thing like this makes me happy..... So why burst my "Bubbles"?? May be some people will never understand..... and it's okay....

Well..... No matter how stupid or childish, I will have these soap bubbles fly all around when (and if ever) I walk down the aisle..... and I will be sipping bubblies that day..... ;)

So.... dun burst my "Bubbles" pls...... I love'em!!! lol~

.... argue, threaten, love, cry, laugh together from this day forward until death do us part.....

Our family loves celebrating Everything that we find worth being happy about!! hehe....

Yesterday, 19 Dec was my parents Anniversary.... And we call our parents' anniversary as 'The Family Birthday'... but this yr, for some family reasons, my parents are half the globe apart....

My mum (65) was telling me it was snowing heavily in Van and was missing my dad (75) terribly and that my dad told my mum on the phone when she called him that he's lonely without her & that he thanks her for remembering the Day..... Awww...... :)

I must say.... while I was growing up, I've seen them argue a lot... and I mean A LOT (even till this date)!!! There were even time when they talked about divorce during the worst times..... but somehow they stayed together till now..... It's like Love-Hate relationship..... but whatever happened, at the end.... they've made the life journey together till this very day and gone thru so many ups and downs that they've come to a point where when I see them, I feel like they are inter-dependent on each other and are not replaceable anymore....

Someone told me long time ago -- being physically alone is not real loneliness but rather it's when you have so-called-the-significant-half sleeping rite next to u or rite next door but u dun feel connected anymore.... that's when u feel the loneliest.....

Well.... seeing my parents.... it makes me cringe and smile and laugh so much...... I think I might wanna re-write their marriage vow:

".... from this day forward until death do us part....." into "....argue, threaten, love, cry, laugh together from this day forward until death do us part....."

.... and I really hope so too..... :)

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From Daddy to Mum... :) Sweet~

Sent: Friday, December 19, 2008 11:25:49 AM
Subject: Happy Family Birthday

Dear My Catharina :

내 꿈이 싹튼지 43주년이되는 날이기에 복뽐이 더욱 그립군!
오늘은 희전이마저 학교에가고 없어 43년만에 홀로 지내는 결혼 기념일이기에 과거를 돌아보는 조용한 하루가 될것 같소.
어제 희전이 따라 Yaohan에 갔다가 중국에서 몰려온 꾼들에게 호주머니를 털렸어. 돈은 약 400원정도이고, ID Card. Credit Card 그리고 노인 카드를 잃었어. 아쉬운것은 아끼던 진 짜 Coach 지갑이라고 할 수 있겠지. 아마 내가 그들 눈에 돈많은 늙은이로 보였다고 생각하며 자위하고 있소(돈이적어 미안하지만).
좀 서글픈 일이지만 앞으로는 Card 같은것을 지니고 다니지 않으려고 생각하고 있소. 모든것 분수에 맞게 적응하려고 생각하니 당연한 일이지만 마음은 불편하군.
오늘 News에 그곳은 눈이 내린다고 하는데, 흰눈 한것 즐기면서 즐겁고 유익한 나날이 되기를 바라오.
Happy Family Blrthday ! !
2008년 12월 19일. Macau에서
복뽐을 그리며 john

OMG! I found 2005 b-day card msg from my mum!!

Below msg was on the card from my mum on my b-day in 2005!! Luv u mum!!!

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Love yourself. Make Peace with who you are and where you are at this moment in time.

Listen to your heart. If you can't hear what it's saying in this noisy world.

Make Time for yourself. Enjoy your company. Let your mind wander among the stars.

Try. Take chances. Make Mistakes. Life can be messy and confusing at times, but it's also full of surprises. The next rock in your path might be a stepping-stone.

Be happy. When you don't have what you want, want what you have.

Make Do. That's a well-kept secret of contentment.

There aren't any shortcuts to tomorrow. You have to Make Your Own Way. To know where you're going is only part of it. You need to know where you've been, too. And if you ever get lost, don't worry. The people who love you will find you. Count on it.

Life isn't days and years. It's what you do with time and with all the goodness and grace that's inside you.

Make A Beautiful Life... The kind of life you deserve...

Life goes on..... each to their own.....

Just finished calling every member of my family -- around the world in 30 min.... hehe... It's always comforting to hear their voices..... :) It's weird how they seem to be so near yet so far.......

I was glad to hear Jae's (my 3rd bro-in-law) voice bf he headed out for work.... and it sounded cheerful enuf given what he's going thru..... Anna (my 3rd sister) also sounded okay.... but mum says she's just pretending to be strong in front of Jae -- and that makes me feel really down....

Then I called the rest of the family.... they all seemed to be busy and happy -- or so it seems.... that was nice.... it sorta plugged up my spirit!! Well.... I guess Life goes on.... each to their own.....

Everything -- relationship, career, money, etc... -- seems so minute in the face of life & death.... nothing really matters u know.... it really makes u realise and prioritise what's really imp in ur life..... ... and to me, rite now... it's my family...

Rite now.... I really wish I could give all of'em a BIG HUG (esp Anna and Jae) -- the kind that u squeeze so hard that u can barely breath......

My Christmas Wish List for '08

Walking home from BLCU, for the first time in BJ, I saw little snow flakes falling.... Ahh..... :) Winter is REALLY here..... I was soooo wishing for White Christmas.....

I'm terribly missing (especially this yr) the cozy christmas I used to have wi my family..... I miss the x-mas tree decorating, gifts wrapping, dinner, x-mas songs, mid-nite Mass -- just all the warmth that comes with Christmas..... I think it's because this yr's x-mas' gonna be very diff from other years.... all the family members are far apart.... :(

Well.... I still do believe in Santa Clause.... :) Here's my Christmas wish list (yes, I've decided not to put the list in the socks but rather in the Blogger given the time has changed...... hehe...)...

So here u go Santa.... I've been a gd gal all yr round.... so am keeping my fingers crossed.... ;)

Angela's X-mas List for 2008:

1. Blessing for my 3rd sister's family (health esp. for my 3rd bro-in-law)
2. "My Only Wish this Yr by Britney Spears"... listen to the lyrics.... lol~
3. ... and the list goes on..... ;)


I feel like having hot chocolate wi marshmellow in it now....

Angelicious.....

Today is one of those days when u r so sure u r coming down with flu...... and u have to sit still at home.... and ur mind wander thru so many silly things that happened.... (brings cringe on ur face.... hehe...) ;)

Sth that I dun think I can ever understand is what guys do when they are drunk... aka drunken-stupidity..... and claim it's fallen into their black out spots..... how convenient...... strange that sometimes they dun realise their lil actions that follows afterwards betray'em...... (how ironic!!)

Think it'd be better off if they were to either apologise for their stupidity or accept their feelings.... I'd have more respect for'em -- seriously....

We all do have our stupid n silly moments..... and it's all gd... I'm silly, way too often than I hope to be, but am fine wi it..... Life is way too serious as it is anyway...... :)

Yeah.... I feel Angelicious today!!!!! lol~

Afterall memories are all that's left behind... or so it seems....

Had a chat wi friend from HK just this afternoon..... it's interesting to hear what's been happening in my ex-co.... Many friends or rather acquaintances that I met thru work has been laid off BIG TIME......

One went off to do his side business, another moved to anther house, few are jobless at the moment.... while the lucky ones (or rather un-lucky ones) remains wi the firm....

Was it just half a yr ago... we were still all sitting in the same trading floor wondering when the day would end.... and now.... we are all @ diff places, doing diff stuff......

Not that I'm close to all of'em but I wonder when we'll ever all meet again..... I'd like to be remembered..... afterall memories are all that's left behind... or so it seems....


** Think am gonna take up photography soon.... when my memory starts to fade... at least I'll have sth to hold onto.....

Finding the Perfect "Imperfect Match"....

It's never-ending discussion we have regardless of the age, gendre or race.....

Recently, this issue's been way-too-much discussed.... 1)my gf emotionally jumping from one potential to another (for what it seems to me to be nothing more than slight passing by interest from a guy); 2) then a guy friend not willing to get back together wi his long-term gf (who he can even see to be the life time partner) for what it seems to be a "more fun & wilder substitutes"; 3) then yet another gal starting a relationship wi a good buddy just to break up in one mth -- the result?? yes both friend and lover lost.... (tho it was more of the guy's fault in my humble opinion); 4) then an IDD call from my ex-company junior asking for love advise on how to get a guy's interest back -- but she has merely gone out on one single date for past 1 mth wi him; 5) then a buddy who makes a move to his best female friend just before he marries his so-called-the-woman-of-his -life (gd that the female friend had more moral, ethic value); 6) then on the side, there are friends who are getting married and giving birth to divorcing and having affairs...... It makes me wonder the whole pt of finding 'The One'...

Of all these odds.... everyone's still constantly in search for 'The One'..... the so-called-Perfect-one..... (even incl. myself i guess).... Given all the contradicting things we do and say... it makes me wonder -- why r people trying to look for Perferct one when themselves are imperfect?? May be it's time to find The Perfect "Imperfect Match"...... just like finding the jig saw puzzle pieces....

@BJ in a little corner of "Wu Town"......

Am sitting in my little room rite now.... listening to some oldies.... thinking how I ever ended up here @BJ in a little corner of "Wu Town"...... (yeah... I love nameing all sorts of things!!) :)



Somehow, lately my life's been taking too many unexpected sudden turnings -- or so it seems -- that so many little things which matters so much to me are fading from my memories....



May be it's time to stop running and take baby steps again.... 'one.... two.... three.... stop & look ard....'